A.C. Bushnell

Falling Into You

There is some rare & inexpressibly exquisite beauty

i long to bring into this world—
It lives behind my heart. Far, far behind & beyond, out where the stars flicker and further still— beyond the stars & whirling galaxies, the myriads of worlds & suns & stars,
beyond, beyond, deeper & deeper into the dark mystery of space to the other side of darkness & time & form, a region beyond the mind’s perception, a distance incomprehensible,
and yet
fathomed easily by the open innocence
of the Heart.
Here at the point of origin,

in the silence beyond all sound,
and the Light beyond all darkness, as in a pause before the first breath
that breathed all worlds into being
and long after the measure of Time is no more, this that I am, is…
A Love incomprehensible, a beauty unimaginable,
and yet
I would dream countless universes in My attempt to express
My Heart, My Heart,
My Heart,
My Heart that is more tender than a Mother’s, for I Am the Mother of all Mothers,
the Heart of all hearts
the breath of all breath
and the beauty that shares through all beauty.
I cannot be named nor defined,
yet I define & redefine you,

create & recreate you in My image
each time your tender heart is opened in Love.
It is I longing for Myself
who longs through you, and the ? sweet mystery of our union causes you to weep. Your every tear is mine,
I created the stars there, and through your overflowing heart-waters
I pour into your world.
Surrender to My current. Be overwhelmed, softened & melted down by the waves of feelings flowing through
your vulnerable heart. It is Me
entering your world as a tidal wave destroying all structures of Time & mind that cannot contain my unimaginable Love.
Relax… surrender…
and be taken as effortlessly as a leaf falling,
or a tear falling, falling, falling,
so am I
falling into you.

©Grace 2004

In That Timeless Moment

What if you did not wander off in your mind?
If you opened to the present moment
with your full awareness…?
It seems almost too overwhelming
to embody so much Presence.

The Light of a billion suns would touch down
through you body, and who could withstand such Radiance?
So the world is just a dream,

and you keep sleeping just a little longer; holding it all together for just a little while more,
pretending it has some substance and meaning other than what you give it.
O’dreaming child, will you ever wake up?

or are you still too afraid
Of the Light
dawning behind your closed perceptions?
The pressure of that growing Brilliance

will eventually wear you down.
Too weary to run, you’ll finally surrender.
In that timeless moment
I will come

©Grace 2006

The Longing

The longing has always been…

since before the world was I was
longing for you… Everything that is
came into Being out of my longing to find you. That one Desire
created worlds
upon worlds
upon worlds.
I’ve been looking for you
within every world.
and every life form,

every atom and cell and universe,
every thought and feeling and imagining—-
Every dream ever dreamed
was my dream
of you.

I’ve been longing for you
lifetime after lifetime
until they all melt from my memory
like rivers melt into the sea. It’s a very, very long time,
even longer than time, since before Time was that this longing has been.
I’m growing weary now;
worlds have come & gone,
and Time is running out.
I surrender.

©Grace 2003

You are the Sun of God

You ask me “what is your purpose?”
And I can only say

What more purpose do you need than to be Love?
Isn’t this Life’s purpose for Itself?
Follow the stream of Love
from your heart and see where it takes you.
you need no other guide than this—- the heart never Leads you astray, though your questioning mind might think so.
Don’t question Love. Just feel it.
Trust it… more than you could ever trust any reasoning
or argument against Loving. the innocence of an open heart
is the resting place of God. When or if the heart closes,
God & truth & sanity & sanctity
disappear.
This is why the world is as it is; this is why there is so much suffering.
The suffering is always a sure sign that the heart has closed
& the flow of Love has been dammed. All wars, disease & other madness
are just this: the flow of Love has been dammed.
Whatever you do, don’t listen to the voices
of fear & reason, no matter how convincing they may be!
Become deaf to any voice
but Love as it whispers or shouts
through your heart.
People will question your sanity… They will think you’re mad or perhaps they too will recognize
the indisputable truth that shines from your face like the sun.
We’re all the same inside. Everyone wants to be happy. Everyone wants Love
and everyone’s afraid.
Be fearlessly a fool, crazed by Love,
drunk on the sweetness of your own Divine Essence as it pours from your broken open heart and overflows on everyone you meet.
Then you’ve found your purpose:
To be a Sun shining Love Light into the world
warming & blessing & illumining everything.
You are the Sun of God.
Tell me, what greater purpose could you have
than this?

©Grace